Colton,
Today is the day before your birth- Right now I find myself to be so excited and absolutely terrified at the same time. Before long you will be old enough to understand that bringing you into this world, was the easiest and best choice I ever made, it might not have been under the best of circumstances or the right time, but your life inside of me made me strong, you make me strong, and I know you will continue to do so for the rest my life. Your being brought home to a house that is SO full of love for you, I could not even begin to explain. Your grandma has been going crazy, spoiling you rotten already, and can’t wait to see your face, to hold you, hug you and shower you with kisses. Your grandfather has been cleaning and organizing the house just in time for your VERY LATE arrival and I have been trying to relax and enjoy my final days of carrying you in my belly.
I’ve been thinking about how your life affects our future together as a family, I’m scared that I might not always do right by you; I might not always be able to get you everything you could ever want, or need. I’m scared your father won’t always be around to show you the love you deserve. I’m scared your grandmother, my mommy, won’t be around long enough to help me raise you into the man I want you to be. But it’s funny, because I know as long as we have each other we will be fine, because I will always try my hardest to make your life wonderful, and you’ll always be around to give me the strength to do so.
I’m so excited to meet you Colton; I wish I could put in words how powerful of an influence your life force has already giving me, thank you.
Love always and forever,
Mommy.
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